Happy Shining

After a long time I decided to talk back to my inner child, was no longer here but left a shine behind. So this letter is in case you come back.

Little Evil Dulce

It took me a while to open that box  and see with my own eyes what I left in the past. So many memories, so many nights, but no matter how deep the fears hide, there was always that voice that won’t let me run fast.

I was shining when all my life crashed, the open box let the ghosts out, and I choose to forget and never go back, forgetting dreams, nightmares and wishes behind, so they never haunted me when the time gets aligned. It was so much pain that I couldn’t stay alive, so I decide to sleep to don’t hear more of the saddest time.

But finally the voice was way too loud, I couldn’t stop as I always tried, for some many years ignoring the cry. I woke up with the shine again in my mind, knowing that truth that I always decide to hide, knowing that hunters will chase me one more time, knowing my time will soon be aligned.

Today I celebrate another cycle of life, as I can truly remember what it was my shine, I embrace that light that I left once, ensuring it comforts me and keep me alive. There is so much to thank but so little time, that I just will be shining so everyone will be, amazed and shock to see the real pal, to know the essence of my darkest side.

HBD L.E.D

 

 

 

Dark Times

Dealing with human feelings is beyond my comprehension.

Why a Yes means No?
When a smile is as fake as a Monopoly coin or the push from a hand means a desperate scream for a hug…I’m totally ready to drop all and go.

Life is never easy and as more as we look for happiness as more as our souls are fragile and exposed.

Contradictions, lack of honesty and lies is what I found on the road most of the times. However is the path I choose to walk and the one I’ll continue walking until I can find a true heart that is now out of my sight.

No all dark is bad and no all light is good. We need to learn to see the answers in this troubled world. To choose wisely without broking our hearts from time to time without hurting again those beautiful minds, the ones that trust in our imaginary light while indeed I was hidding my worst Nightmares behind.

Little Evil Dulce

 

Empty Spaces

Waking up under the Arch made me realized how screw my life can be… that was my first thought this morning when I woke up in a 29th floor of a luxury hotel in front of the Arch.

Life is messy indeed but my mind can play tricky evil games no only to others but myself and after a whole 3 months of unstoppable work I decided to sneak out of the hole and run away.

Out of town life is different indeed. All colors of sadness and joy are there. Tears and happiness are mixed in a complicated story that just a few can tell. The ones under a fsncy dome aren’t clueless of what’s happening outside but still pretending life won’t ever be as good as it is for they right now.

I’m walkingin the valley of shadows hidding myself from life itself. Pretending to be all of them and still feel the empty space. Don’t know why and still figuring when I will be capable to understand it. Living on a side of this world is always a coin in the air; full of surprises as dark of my mind or bright as my human heart.

I got some new toys to rise and shine out of the standardized life. Those are the ones that keep my mind clear and right to hold my hands for a pray and find a spot to watch the fall of a human nation while the ones stand up.

I still have my empty spaces and lot of answers to find.

Little Evil Dulce

 

Red Rose

Born from the ashes of my broken past I put all the pieces back of this broken heart turning into the saddest red rose that you will ever watch.

Little Evil Dulce

 

What is wrong?

While I was writting Today with a rainy and gray sky I got a post from my dereast friend that shocked me down.
I couldn’t stop the tears in my eyes while I was reading the words that since always had been running in my mind. 

Not sure if the dark is getting so close or just  no matter how hard I’ll be falling apart, far from those times that always pull me down.

The words in my screen as you see below are the ones that chase me since long time ago.

I keep him so close to my heart and my  soul because no one was ever to read through my bones as the way that can notice just through my eyes the sorrow and pain that are running inside and still trying to care of this old stubborn witch that will be thankful for having him always around, till the end of the days that I’m  letting behind.

Little Evil Dulce.

 

Regrets

My time is coming. I know that for sure as I can’t handle things as I use to. My breath is going away and my souls struggling every day.

I’m waiting patiently for the next move. I felt the rejection in your words and it almost finished the last little pieces of my human heart.

But as the rotten souls that walk within us, I’m still stucked to you in this life. No matter how hard you try I’ll always find the way to walk around.

I am that witch they fear at night, the shadow you saw when is getting dark but most of all I’m that woman that light your path; the one that will be always there to hold your back because you are the only human that can fix this heart that is broken in pieces that I can’t get back.

“A tattoo is a story without sound about the owners life, mind and soul that only if you are capable to dig through the human skin will find those unwritten words”

Little Evil Dulce

 

Privileges of the New World

When Eat, Sleep, Rest, repeat become a privilege more than a primary need I guess we are walking through the wrong yellow road.

These past weeks I’ve been doing my best to keep walking tall through a road completely full of obstacles, unhappy faces and stressful times. After 22 years being a world citizen I feel my humanity at its finest. Don’t get me wrong, this has been a unique experience that I’ll remember for years. Tears, laughs, frustration, happiness and hesitation all at once made me realized the importance of our own personal space and inner goals.

I truly decided that my main focus is to reach no even love but a peaceful self. How? Still wondering how but is a must that I’m far away to give up.

Family and closest friends become a primary care, after them the care of my amazing team as my labor family which need to be encourage and pampered sometimes. Without all of them I’ll be breaking apart.

I guess time offers you wisely ways to understand life and make the necessary arrangements to live it one day at a time with baby but strong steps.

My time will come but Today isn’t the day, so let’s keep trying harder and make every breath we take matters.

 

What a wonderful world

What a wonderful world is the one I live in, where my deepest wishes become true and our past build our future every step we walk on it.

I took my chance, made my choice and my whole life started to change… what about you?

Que maravilloso mundo es este en el cual vivo, donde mis deseos más escondidos se vuelven realidad y nuestro pasado construye el futuro con cada paso que doy en el.

Tome una oportunidad, hice mi elección y toda mi vida comenzó a cambiar… y tú?

 

And so the weekend begins…

El no encontrar quien te escuche y que la única sombra de lo que eres que se haya ido de la noche a la mañana… el tener que seguir tolerando esta infinita tristeza tras una máscara de humanidad implantada.#sinpi

To never find someone to talk and that the only shadow of what you are is simply gone in a glimp… to keep holding this infinite sadness behind this fake human face 

 

“Uglyful”

Found this page on internet. Talking about diversity and the social standards with a friend it catched mu attention that equal opportunity now a days keeps being a challenge.

They are making a difference… Are we as well?

http://www.ugly.org/UGLY-MODELS/

The concept is great and to give others a chance to succeed is a remarkable concept. Isn’t about make fun of others disadvantages is about to offer the opportunity to shine.

LED

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